We survived another year. Another decade even.
I am not really one for New Year's Resolutions because I find they just add more stress to my already crazy life so I think of them more as goals and aspirations for my daily life.
I do, however, typically take time to reflect on my life during this "new beginning" and the reflection I am seeing right now is one of letting go.
Letting go of past hurts.
Letting go of past failures.
Letting go of bitterness and unforgiveness.
And letting go of people who have already let go of me.
Let me explain. I spent so many years of my life as a "people pleaser". Always wanting to "fit in". So worried if someone was upset with me and always trying to make other people happy.
The problem was - I wasted so much time and energy trying to please other people that I forgot how to take care of myself. And so I lost myself in the process.
Maybe it is my age talking (I am not old by any means, just "mature") - but I have finally stopped trying to be a people pleaser and started trying to take care of me. That has been a tough one for me. I am a nurturer by nature so taking time for me seems a selfish act. But I have discovered that NOT taking time for me was actually doing more harm than good because I was left with little energy for those close to me.
I also made the decision to no longer waste time and energy on those who have no time for me. I do not mean that to sound harsh. Just being honest here.
I am 51 years old. I have no time for games. You either love me or you hate me but don't pretend either way. I would never do anything intentionally to hurt someone, however, I also am a very direct person so I apologize in advance if my honesty offends you.
But this is the truth. If you love me, then be my friend. Support me. Trust me. Have faith in me.
If you hate me, then walk away. Don't say a word. Don't let my name cross your lips.
The worse thing you can do is pretend to love me and then spite my name in private.
Not everyone is going to be your cup of tea and that is okay. Some people just don't mix well together. Doesn't mean we have to hate one another. Respect goes a long way.
It's a New Year! Time for New Beginnings!